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Would you let me touch you in the moonlight
And love you all through the night
Can i kiss your sweet soft lips
And carass your hips
Can i make love to you
And do everything
You want me to do
Can i make you feel so good
That you want to scream
Make you so wet
That you want to cream
I bet you're as sweet
As honey is to bees
Can i taste your nectar
I'm down on my knees
Imagine me between your legs
Giving it to you
Until you beg
Licking you softly with my tongue
Tasting your nectar as it runs
Down m… Continue

Come to me as an empty vessel
So i can fill you full of love
For my love is unconditional
And without question
For i love you as you are
Not for what you're not
I see the beauty that lies
Deep within
Come to me as an empty vessel
So i can fill you full of joy
That overflows from my heart
For i want to share my joy with you
Come to me as as empty vessel
When you feel pain and dread
For i will take it away
I will be your rock of hope
Don't feel bad to cry before me
Because i will wipe away your te… Continue

I don't understand why the people i love the most are the very ones who's hurt me the worst. I just came inside from sitting on my front porch, i sit outside everyday and write in my journal. Today i was writing about an ex-friend of mines, yesterday was her birthday. I don't allow myself to think about her because of the hurt that she caused me, she was my best friend for quite a while, she broked off our friendship without any explaination. When i asked her what i had done she told me nothing,… Continue

I don't proclaim to be perfect
I'm far from it
But you can't seem to realize
That i have flaws
You only see the outside cover
And not take the time
To get to know the "Real" me
I'm damaged goods
The product of an abusive childhood
That's left it's mark on me
And makes me question my existence
I have insecurities
That i work very hard to hide
Instead i choose to show
The good things i have to offer
Afraid to show you my flaws
Because you might not understand
And choose to reject me
Instead of giv… Continue

I feel so lost
This self imposed loneliness
This armor around my heart
This brick fence i've built
To protect myself
From hurt and pain
Longs to be broken
But i'm so afraid
To let anyone in
Of getting too close
Of letting someone love me
Of loving someone
But not loving someone
Is perhaps worst
Than being alone
It still cause hurt and pain
In my self imposed exile
In the safety of this cocoon
I've built around me
I long to be touched
To be loved by someone
But i dare not let anyone in
I'm too sc… Continue